Well, the time has come. That dreaded day is here. Tonight is my last night at work. When I get off shift tomorrow at 6am I will be officially unemployed. Not by choice mind you. Unfortunately I am just a victim of circumstance. My contract I was on has run out. I have been trying for the past year to find a new job and to no avail. Unfortunately with a shitty economy and fiscal cliff issues and the fact that a lot of federal jobs are direct hiring people who have their VA disability complete (VA has been sitting on mine for 2 yrs now and still waiting) I am left in the cold, despite my resume, qualifications, certifications, and Top Secret clearance.
So what does this mean? My arrears for Child Support and Alimony will stack up. No purchasing of alcohol, movies, or anything off Amazon and if you know me, you know these are my Achilles heel. My God the possibility of going 6 months or more without those things, I don’t know if I can take it. I may end up robbing someone or prostituting myself out for money. This also means my wife’s anxieties are skyrocketing. How do we pay for rent? How do we buy Groceries? How do we pay my car note? How do we pay our electricity? How do we pay any of our bills? We are alone here and it sucks. My depression medicine had been working but I fear after tomorrow my depression may get to be too much even for my medicine.
I am still holding out hope that one of the thousands of jobs that I applied for that I haven’t heard back from yet will call me and hire me. I have to have that hope. If I don’t have hope, I have nothing to keep me going, to keep me positive and no one is going to want to be around me if am not positive, trust me.
So here’s to the start of a new year, with no job, no money, and no prospects. Woohooooooo. So say a prayer to God, Allah, Buddha, Zeus, Satan, the Penis Gods, or whoever it is you pray to that something comes my way quickly. If you don’t pray well spread the word, I’m looking for anything in IT, COMSEC, or Management. Those are the biggies. Outside of that I’ll do acting, modeling or anything to make money till I can get something I am qualified for. Oh and yes I am considering the amateur stand up comedy at the local clubs as it was suggested till something else comes along.